I had a friend once tell me that she had an addictive personality. I’m not sure if she told me this as an excuse for some of her behavior or if she was just being raw and honest with me. However, she had good self reflection to know this about herself and she knew she needed to have good guardrails to keep her from stumbling in areas she knew she might be prone to fall.
Although some people may have addictive personalities and may need to fight harder against family history or personality traits, we all are prone to addiction on some level. None of us are immune from addictions. Because we are human, we all are fighting against our sinful nature.
Why do we continue to fall into doing the things we don’t want to do, the things that we hate? We know the good things that God has for us, but we still find ourselves getting tangled up in the same sins over and over again. Romans 7:15 says, “I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate.”
We are not good enough on our own to be good enough for God. We will always fall short. Thanks be to God who delivers us, through Jesus, to freedom from our sinful patterns and addictions.
You can’t keep yourself accountable. Pray that God would reveal a trusted friend or mentor that you can confide in to offer support and accountability with your struggles.